my wonders.

One thing that I always try avoid to do but end up failing: Revisiting my emotions. I have finally lost it tonight, but good thing is that I know where it's leading me. So... I can say that I do have a heart.

The situation that I got myself into currently is pretty much vague. I don't know if that's the correct word to define it but it's just how I see it. I'm a firm believer in my own hunches. Sometimes when I feel uneasy and disturbed, then I know that it's not a good sign. Then some bad news happened and I'd tell myself, "I knew it!" But whenever I feel calm, then I know all will be smooth despite whatever shit that I've had to put up with.

Nonetheless I don't think too much about the worries. I prefer to just go with what I want to do because I know that I've got nothing to lose. I have my own way in putting my effort in the things that I want to work for. I should know that it will all be worth it in the end. That's why I put so much effort in the first place. I don't want to expect the same return but I'd appreciate a little thank you and an acknowledgement at least. A lot of people have forgotten that simple words can be priceless to someone, material things don't matter anymore.

I promise to myself that I won't cry because things don't end up the way I want it to be, and I will keep that in mind. But I'm really sad because some people don't have the courtesy to say thank you to the littlest thing. Is it because it's so little that they fail to notice the importance?

I'm just wondering..